"Having Faith..often means doing what others see as crazy. Something is wrong when our lives make sense to unbelievers."
There are people who think that what my squad and I am doing is absolutely ridiculous. When I told them what I was planning to do for these next 9 months, the only sounds to utter from their lips were words of fear, and unimaginability that someone would leave a good life in the U.S to live for almost a year in 3 third world countries. Living out of comfort. Living where anything could happen. And, there were of course the people who supported/prayed for me. Which I am BEYOND blessed for. I honestly can not believe when I first heard God's voice to go on this trip, that it was even possible for one person to donate to me.
But it happened. And I am Here. He is Faithful.Always.
Then there were some people, which strained my heart the deepest..
The ones who thought they could Never do anything like this in their life. Who thought they were not "good" enough. Who somehow believed a lie- that they couldn't in their own way impact the world. Go after what they wanted. Or even possibly hold on to a hope that they might, just might, be able to live out a dream. It breaks my heart. Because, at one time I WAS THAT GIRL. I was that girl who did not think I could impact one single person. Who could do anything worthwhile. To say anything worth listening to. To help be a part of something MUCH greater than I. I didn't know my worth. I thought of myelf as just another human walking on this Earth.
BUT OH MAN. Did God prove me wrong! Everyday He shows me. Shows me how that I am beyond useable. That every day, every word I speak, any small action I do, and my attitude that I have towards people affects the lives around me. I don't think we realize it... but one smile, one hug, one conversation, or just an assurance of one person to another can mean so much. I do not want to take the small things for granted anymore.
I am so happy to be here, even though difficult at times- to just show L O V E to these people. That's one thing everyone needs. You need to feel/hear it every single day.
HE SAYS THAT WE ARE "Fearfully and wonderfully made"pslam 139:14
"The LORD appeared to us in the past, saying: I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness" Jerimiah 31:3
"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." Isaiah 41:10
"But God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." Romans 5:8
Feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you. Only you can let it in. NO ONE else can speak the words on your lips. Drench yourself in words unspoken. Live your life with arms wide open. Today is where your book begins. The rest is still unwritten